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Dear World,
I realized that over the past couple of years, I have missed something in myself, something that I had hidden away from everyone else but the few I truly loved. I know it's unfair to you, and that you do deserve more, but due to the lack of compassion that I had received in the last two years has shattered my faith and hope in ever regaining the part of me that I had lost. I realized that I shouldn't be taking it out on you, and I need to have more patience and compassion. It is not because I lack understanding of the circumstances or situation, but I run dry when people break down and do not seem to accept the situation, embrace it, and run with it to produce a better outcome for themselves. I lack the compassion for those who are out to prove themselves instead of realizing that self-acceptance is all they truly and reall need. I lack the compassion for those who are experiencing hardships over and over again, who continuly got hit with crappers from the fan, and I lack the compassion for those who have burdens that are too heavy for them to handle themselves. For that, I am sorry.
But also for that, I am determined to gain back the compassion I once saw through my eyes onto the world, and gave the benefit of the doubt to everyone around me. I am determined to shine again, and become the light I once was, and the cheers and encouragement in the dark to everyone else around me. That much, I know I can promise to become for you again.
Love, Teelia.
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